Mozart and geisha's

A few short months away from my finals and I'm extremely restless. My mind keeps jumping from idea to idea. I sit to study and suddenly feel hungry. I write a few words and want to hear my mothers voice. I feel over whelmed by the desire to do well and then I'm empty... I want no part in it. I want to give up. Maybe I'm not cut out for this? Then I realise that I desire this, I wished for it so badly and now I have it. How can I take it so lightly?

Accompanying my erratic mood are the following pieces. They are currently playing on repeat.

Mozart's sonata for two pianos in D major

This Instantly lifts my spirits and makes me hopeful and realistic. But then it's a sonata for two pianos and I feel rather lonely thinking of how two people should be perfectly synchronised, so perfectly in tune with one other that it would be difficult to determine where one begins and the other ends. They're so different, so distinct, yet in that moment the union is complete.

The other is a Japanese song called 'Kamisama hajimemashita' by Hanae

This tune has been stuck in my head ever since I watched an anime by the same name. I won't detail the anime, as it didn't make great impression on me, though it was cute. But the opening and ending songs of the show are great. As soon as I heard this song, a music video started to play out in my mind. That of a geisha-like girl (i say geisha-like, as I imagined her to be dressed in a Kimono, with traditional Japanese hair accessories, an oriental fan but minus the typical make-up), being repeatedly spurned by her crush (influence by the words of the song itself).  The colors of this video were vibrant, similar to Kanye's Gold digger video :D     One scene was of the girl, singing whilst the fan covered her most of face, but her eyes are captivating the viewer, another scene is of her stalking his facebook page and growing angry/sad when she sees pictures of him with other girls. She turns up to his work-related meeting (typical Japanese affair, in private restaurant room, lots of sushi, sake and of course geishas), posing as one of the working geishas and continually seeks his attention and interrupts the meeting by trying to serve him sake or dance for him etc The rest were of her earnestly attempting to woo her crush, by being cute or seductive and turning up pretty much every where he goes etc. I might admit that the girl in this conjured up music video is myself and the lead male frequently changes depending on which crush I care to remember. Yes, I know my imagination is a little silly/sad at times. But that's just me. I really like this song and the images it conjures up are very light-hearted and optimistic... definitely something that is needed during this stressful time. The above video features the singer and I was a little surprised to see the video, as it really didn't correlate at all with the one I had imagines. Sad times.


Also listening to Pachabel's canon in D major. I know it's been a somewhat commercialised/ become a little mainstream, but when I listen to this, I always feel like I'm slowly rising off the ground and floating away, faster and faster towards an endless blue sky and then it begins raining and I'm still climbing higher, meanwhile the world below continues to revolve.  Or I imagine a slow motion scene from 71 into the fire or another war movie. And Brahms symphony no 1 in c minor, when I'm feeling more melodramatic.