I don't recall how I came across this website:
http://suicideproject.org/
But I'm glad I found it. Though it's deeply saddening to see the multitudes of people out there who wish to harm themselves or end their lives, I'm glad that there is platform for them to display their thoughts and express their emotions. At times I have tried to write back to some messages, hoping in someway that my words will reach them and give them some hope and prevent them from committing the act that will end their life. It's almost strange to think that as I write this, somewhere out there or even here in the building that I live in for that matter, there is someone who desperately wishes that they were dead or never existed. It so painful just thinking about it and what's almost worse is knowing that they're there and not being able t anything about it. Sometimes, like today for instance, I feel so down and sorry for myself, but when I see this site I realise that my feelings and my unhappiness is not the same as those individuals who can't stand life any longer.
I wish I could do more to help such individuals. I really don't think I want to do Psychiatry, but I wish I had a desire to. I feel like I might be able to help such individuals, Lord knows I would out in the effort and energy to see them to talk to them in depth to try and understand them and their problems. I know depression isn't that simple and neither is wanting to end your life. But I wish I had the capability to help people overcome such feelings. I've just spent ages reading through some of the posts and I feel so sad :(
One piece hiatus....back on Naruto!
A lot of the time I really don't like being up to date with my shows. Reason being: I don't like waiting for one episode every week... it's painful! For some shows, like Pretty Little Liars, I can handle it. But for shows like One Piece I really cannot tolerate waiting seven whole days for about 20 minutes of viewing time. It's killing me, it really is. I loved it when I had over 100 episodes stretching ahead of me. I hungrily watched episode after episode late into the night.The great thing about being able to do that was the fact that I could actually really get into to it, really let the intensity build up and really grasp the story line, the feelings and essence of the show. But when I'm waiting, like I am now, it really takes it out of me. It's like the episode is just getting good and the excitement is growing and then................. Yes, wait seven day until you can really enjoy it. At the moment this whole Trafalgar law thing has been getting to me. A) because I really want to know what he's up to! How the heck is he going to destroy the new world? And what's in that darn room? B) I really really hope he and Luffy stay on the same side (generally speaking) c) Luffy just doesn't seem as strong as he should be! They really need to make him go nuts! :D Well, the fillers kill me and I'm just mad because I can't get the show to go at the pace I want. So here's my plan (we'll have to see if it works!): take a break from OP and get back to watching Naruto. The same kind of thing occurred with Naruto. I got a bit annoyed with the fillers, didn't like being up to date and also had exams at the time (this is like a year ago!)...So I tried to hold back from watching it, just so that the episodes build up. Initially it didn't work and like a coke fiend, I just went back for more, even though the hit I was getting just wasn't enough. But eventually I managed to sort of build a barrier between me n Naruto...It worked. I abstained for over a year! I know, it's quite unbelievable really, I actually love Naruto probably as much as OP. But in all honesty nowadays a year for me...it passes by like a few months. So It feels as if it hasn't been all that long really. I just watched a few episodes and I can't actually believe I went on for so long without. I love Naruto and am almost ashamed of myself for having managed to keep away so long, but at the same time I have gained a little respect for myself too...I was finally able to resist, I have some will power after all. Now, I have a particular attachment to OP and I have tried on several occasions to do the same thing, but shamelessly broke the covenant with myself.... But this time I'm actually determined! I have Naruto to fill that hole that OP will leave...It's only a few months but I know it's going to be tough!
Picture this: 15 August 2013
This week in books
It just had to be done! I really needed to revisit this old classic. Who doesn't like a good adventure? An immaculately written story about a much sought after map that details the location of a notoriously cunning pirate's treasure. The real adventure begins when the map falls into the hands of our young protagonist Jim Hawkins. He finds himself on a ship with an interesting number of characters. And it soon becomes apparent that Jim and his close friends are not the only ones after the treasure. I couldn't stop reading and finished it in no time, though I did have to put up with feeling sleep deprived for the better part of this week...
This one right here, The Masnavi by Rumi, is a masterpiece! As the blurb reads: "Rumi's Masnavi is widely recognised as the greatest Sufi poem ever written.." and what a poem it is! This is Rumi's method of portraying his love for God. It is a poem but explores various tales and Islamic teachings and Muslim history. As the blurb says, this book is 'spiritually profound'. It's the background reading of the week. What does that mean? By no means does it mean that this book is boring and is therefore in the background. No siree! This is an intellectually and spiritually stimulating piece of work, thus it can't be read like any old novel in a single sitting. It must be read, digested, pondered upon and then understood.
This book I have just picked up from a friends shelf today. I was reeled in by the fact that it was written by Elif Shafak (I really enjoyed his book, The bastard of Istanbul). Then the blurb really had me. It's about an obese woman and her dwarf lover. They are sick of being stared at and decide they will switch roles. So the woman paints on a mustache and the dwarf puts on makeup (tell me that doesn't pull you in). The man embraces the world as it gazes at him, whilst the woman doesn't. He then compiles a 'Dictionary of Gazes' where he records the looks of the passers-by, in order to explore the boundaries between appearances and reality. I'm looking forward to this, the first few pages are so far so good.
